Woops!

So this happened this weekend.

Basically, just like that but I didn't end up flying off to the UK. I eventually said "I love you" in return but it felt a little forced. It's not that I don't care for Whiskey, I do. I think I'm just a little more closed and protective of my feelings. I realize that this may be a mixed signal based on what happened a couple of weeks ago. I hope he just bares with me while I work this all out!

Viral Killer

Just when I was feeling back to normal.....I was more paleo than I have been. I made it a whole 2 weeks to the gym as scheduled. I lost 2#'s. And then BOOM! Virus attack! Saturdays 4mile run was postponed to Sunday, since I could barely breathe out my nose and my throat was raw (wasn't the tonsilectomy supposed to cure that?). And Sunday's run was canceled. I was feeling some what better but I still could not breathe!

I woke up Monday feeling pretty good and decided I would do my crossfit workout. It was rough! I had labored breathing and actually had to stop several times. My final time 15min 15 sec was such a disappointment considering I had done this very same workout in October in 7min 42 sec. UGH!!! My lungs hurt for a couple of hours after that too.

This morning, Tuesday, I did my scheduled 3 miles. Aaaand, I came in 7 minutes slower than normal. This virus needs to kick it!!

IT'S KILLING ME!!

CrossFit Today

Wednesday

As you know, I've left my CrossFit box. It was heartbreaking and incredibly difficult to do but my finances dictated it. I've been trying to do it on my own at my local gym. Up until last week it was very sporadic. I've been a bit more consistent but does two weeks count as good behavior? I also did runs of 3 miles Saturday, 2miles Tuesday, 3 miles Thurday.

My two WODs this week were difficult. As you can see. I left off the row

s on today's. I've been having some left knee pain after running and noticed the past couple of times rowing my left knee hurt in the back. Being more consistent with my CF and running has also led me to be a little bit more disciplined in my eating habits, too. I'm hopeful that this is a return to the "norm" for me. I need it, the past 6-9months has been pretty crappy on the food/exercise front.

Friday

On a side note: During one of the 1min breaks in today's WOD an INCREDIBLY fit woman who was finishing up with her trainer came up to me and told me how amazing and dedicated I was and wanted to know if I programmed my own workouts. She also noted that I work really hard. Which I do! I go balls to the wall when I work out. It's just getting started that's the problem. It felt crazy good to be told this and will carry me into the next two weeks helping me to make the last two weeks a habit!

Search Terms

These are the search terms that have brought people to my blog....

I am apparently an alcoholic cat lady with a shark problem, who lives in her basement.

Off the Sites

Well, Whiskey and I are still going. Apparently, me slipping up a couple of weeks ago didn't have him running for the hills. In fact, this past week we spent 4
days in a row together. Not full days, mind you, but a good couple of hours each day. To some of you this may not be a big deal but to me it's a mile stone. In another week or two it will officially be the longest relationship I've been in since Original Flavor. SCARY!!

Over the course of the past three days we talked about the dating site we met on and discussed if we were still on it. We both were but neither of us had been on it in weeks. Obviously, there's no harm in leaving my profiles up, since I have no plan to "keep looking." So, I've officially closed my profiles. As I was closing one I got an email from Hot Dan! He had last texted in January asking if I was still seeing someone and his email asked if there was trouble in paradise. I don't know how he knew I was on! It was instantaneous!! I replied with no and that I was just trying to figure out how to remove my profile. Which, I was successful in doing.

Whiskey and I have taken one official "relationship" step last night. We went out with one of my great friends and her husband. I know I was bit tippsy but I think they found him favourable. And, liked him better than the last one I introduced them to, which was Tex. In a couple of weeks I'll be going to meet a couple of his friends. I'm a bit worried about it. I'm not so good with the small talk.

Well, SHIT!

In the last update I introduced you to the new guy in my life but failed to mention his name. Let's call him Whiskey. Which is pretty fitting since I do love my whiskey.

We're going into our 7th week of dating and we have some form of communication every day. We haven't actually labeled "us" as BF or GF but we have decided not to see others or go looking.

Anyways, the point of this entry: he surprised me Thursday with a free evening and yesterday with a free 2 hours. It was quite nice since I thought this week was going to pass with out seeing him (he is the primary parent for his son and couldn't get a sitter.)

Thursday he came over late but we sat around and caught up on our weeks and then I went to bed. He stayed up and did lawyer things. Whiskey left very early Friday morning so that he could be in Michigan for court. When I got up in the morning I went into the living room to turn on lights and briefly looked at the note pad on the coffee table. No note. And I was disappointed. I didn't EVEN know I was the type of girl who wanted notes!  I went in to take my shower and saw the note on my mirror. And my day was made!
 
Saturday, Whiskey came over, we had a small lunch, a drink and some talk. We also had a make out session. The problem is that in the middle I got carried away and blurted out "I love you." Quickly followed by "OH! SHIT!" Cause, it's not quite what I meant. It was "I love brownies." Or, "I love the way you kiss me." Even, "I love Big Bang Theory." It was not Love Love. Yes, I can see possibly in the future being love love but not now.


I can't decide if I should try to explain what I meant or just ignore it and pretend it never happened.

Probably #2.

He did give me the login and password for his Netflix. So....win?

Dudes

I know it's been awhile since I've posted. Life has been busy. I'm back to crossfit at the gym on my own. I've been working crazy hours. And of course, I've been dating.

Back at the end of December I was emailed by Tex via the dating site we originally met on. He wanted to catch up and was oblivious to the fact that it had been a year and half. We met for drinks and of course it was fun. He definitely makes me laugh. But nothing had changed except his address. He was still selfish. Still smoked like chimney even though he had boncitis. He refused to come to me and of the 5 or so dates I had to come to him. AND even bring dinner sometimes. I don't mind it once in awhile but it was the same as last time we dated. I brought up the fact that I was always coming to him and he basically stated that that was how it would be 99/100 times. He had some reasoning which was really just justification. We both got really busy with work and since neither one of us are phone people it felt very distant. Evey once in awhile he'd text but it just never felt right and I basically ended it.

In the process of ending what ever it was with Tex, cause it certainly wasn't a full relationship, I met someone else. We've been dating for 5 weeks now and it is so much different than with Tex or others that I've dated. We have quite a bit in common and quite a bit that's not. He is very extroverted, whereas I am very introverted. So far it hasn't been that big of a problem. He's understanding when I tell him I need to hang up and head to bed. He knows I go to the gym super early and it's not like we don't talk at all. We have a couple of other differences but if James Carville and Mary Matalin can work through theirs we probably can too.

I have one more DUDE to talk about. Yesterday I was at the gym doing my crossfit workout. My warm up was 600meters on the rowing machine, practice some double unders (getting better) and then some stretching. This was followed by 1-1-1-1-1 Squat cleans. The last time I did SC's I PRed at 100#s. My goal was to do 105-110#. Well, I blew that out of the water with 125#s!! But, in the middle of me doing them this guy who was working out next to me puts up his hands asking me to stop what I'm doing. SERIOUSLY?!?!?! Do you not know how gym time works? Any ways, he told me that he's REALLY impressed with my squat cleans. What are you impressed with? My impeccable form? That my ass almost touches the floor at the bottom of the squat? That I'm a girl and doing this type of lifting? Yes, it was nice to hear but still incredibly weird.