My Age

For the first time in 36 years I actually feel my age. I've felt this way for the past month or two and it may be Crossfit kicking my ass or it may be that I'm 36 and old.

My mother facetimed me yesterday as I was attempting to get off the couch for water. There may have been some creaking and moaning involved in that attempt, which prompted my mother to ask "what is wrong with you?" Old age mom, old age.

This weekend has me both scared and excited. Scared, because I'm going to do a 10k run on basically one 3mile long run and sporadic 2milers. But, I'm SUPER EXCITED to see my friends that live in Cincinnati!!

Also, I'm back on the dating scene and it's exhausting. I got emailed by a 21yo offering to be my slave and calling me a goddess. My sister made me throw him back. Which, in retrospect was the right call but still......it may have been fun for a bit.

A crazy sidenote about this dating..I was talking with a friend the other day about my dating life and prospects and mentioned that if I could just form the carpenter Hot Dan into a boyfriend I would probably be all set. We had chemistry but his drinking and such made him a bad BF. Guess who texted the next day? And he doesn't drink anymore! So....we'll see. going to try to meet up Sunday.

LOVE

I love my family. Sometimes they KILL me. Case in point, my mom asked where she was when I last called her on her cell. I just couldn't. It didn't help that I had just pulled up to a yard covered in trash.  I gave up that day.

But then we have conversations like this:

Did I mention I basically have a mohawk now?

And I KNOW we talk about things that other mother/daughters, fathers/daughters, or sisters don't talk about. I've mentioned conversations that I've had with my family to friends and they can not believe that we talk openly about those subjects. And I love it. I love all the conversations, even the frustrating ones.

WOW!!

Every Damn Day

It's been almost a month since I last wrote in here. I just can't believe how fast time goes. I really have no good excuse. I had neuro exam, Easter with the family, my sister was in town to go dress shopping, and I've been sick.

Just a quick update. I'm technically still dating Joshua. I say technically because I'm not sure I want to be. He's a very sweet guy but I just don't feel for him the way I think I should. And not the way he feels for me. He's always seems so excited to see me and I just......am not excited to see him. And I have no desire to "be" with him. At two months we should still be hot and heavy for each other.
So I think that's ending. Just not sure when. He's so nice.....

Crossfit has been going well. I didn't go this past week but I have legit excuses. Monday and Tuesday I was wedding dress shopping with my sister! So much fun watching her try on dresses. It's going to be hard to decide on a dress, she looks gorgeous in all of them. I do have a favorite though. Right after she left my house I got sick with a terrible cold and haven't been able to breath properly until today. THAT would make crossfit extremely difficult and I'm pretty sure they would not appreciate me leaking snot all over their equipment. But, I plan on going in tomorrow.

Obviously, running has been out for the past week too. I did get 2 miles in a week ago. Pretty sure I'm going to DIE during the Flying Pig 10K. But since the weather has gotten better, I'm hoping to get more running in.

Sore and Tired

I am so sore and tired!
How sore and tired, you ask?
So sore and tired that when I fell onto my bed while removing my clothes I just laid there for a good five minutes before moving. Even my side boob hurts. Which I suppose means it's actually muscle and not fat. Or rather muscle under it all.

I had hoped to run this morning but sleep seemed a better option. I have to say I have not been running in a very long time and it saddens me. I realize that it's just me holding me back but I can't get out of the bed. It was super cold and now I'm sore and tired from Crossfit. I have decided to sign up for the Flying Pig 10K and am hoping it kicks my butt into gear!

FYI! I wrote this Tuesday and am posting it on Thursday! So tired.

I Think This Says Something

I'm green. He sells stuff on eBay all the time.

This Friday marks 4 weeks with Josh and things seem to be going well. There are a couple of weird things but I'm hoping to break him of them.

One that I brought up to you all last week was the way he holds his fork. You guys, I didn't even say anything but he brought it up himself and said he was trying to "stop eating like a barbarian." he then promptly picked up his fork and proceded to eat like said barbarian. DIDN'T LAST LONG DUDE!

The other is....he sleeps fully clothed, He stayed over last Friday after a late night out and he slept fully clothed. Jeans. Tshirt under a sweatshirt. FULLY CLOTHED! Maybe it's cause he didn't have pjs. Or, he just wasn't that comfortable. I don't know but it is definitely something I will keep an eye on.

Hmmm, not surprised I didn't know that.

This little gem of a texteration happened yesterday. I think it says a lot about my lack of serious boyfriends over the past couple of years. I wanted to reply with "Lol, probably why I haven't had any REAL boyfriends over the past couple of years." But didn;t think that would reflect well on me.

Crossfit...

I FORGOT HOW TERRIBLY MUCH IT HURTS!!!

But it's a good hurt, I suppose. Monday was a shit ton of squats. Back squats, front squats, over head squats. I was mostly ok Monday after but holy shit Tuesday was rough. My lab is split between two floors and I spend most of my time on one with occasional time on the other. But yesterday I had to keep  running back and forth between the two and my phone says I did 14 flights!! 14!!
This morning I was starting to feel better. Yoga and the foam roller yesterday really seemed to help.

AND THEN WE DID DEADLIFTS!
 I've had my legs buckle multiple times at work today, just walking along. So embarrassing.

Needless to say my quads still ache. I may be in need of an ice bath.

What's your Name Again?

I've been dating Joshua for about 2-3 weeks now. We've been on 4 dates and they've been really good. I really only have two things that bug me:

1) He talks and talks and talks and talks. To the point that I'm done with my dinner and he's barely touched his. Which is fine, I'll just sit here and drink my wine while you eat and chatter at me. I've dealt with it for 36 years with my mom and 34 with my sister. I've had a lot of practice.

2) He holds his fork like a barbarian! He's 37 and I'm not sure I will be able to change that but I suppose I could just not look at his hands when he eats.

On the plus side, at least he doesn't hum when he eats. I never thought that would be criteria but HOLY HELL that shit is annoying.

This past Saturday we went to a local Jewish museum and then dinner. The museum was quite interesting, if a bit cold. While there I ran into someone I worked with. And SERIOUSLY! it took me 5 minutes to introduce him because as I'm making conversation with my work pal I'm thinking in my head,
"Ok, you have to introduce him. Do we say friend? Boy friend? Date? HOLY FUCK, what's his name? Jeff? No, no, it is a J name. John? Wait! It's Josh. Yes! Do it now! Introduce him."

It was a huge moment of panic. And, don't get me wrong, I completely know his name, it was just being put on the spot and being the first time I've had to introduce him to someone.

But I think it wasn't noticed cause we went to dinner and then made out for a couple of hours.
The date was almost 12 hours long!! Who does that on the 4th date? It's practically a whole day. I'm not complaining, it was fun and nice. But I don't think I've ever had a 12 hour date this early.

I also had a small moment of panic when he said, "I googled you and I found a page about you." I thought he had found this blog but no. He actually found a science site that keeps track of my papers. But my thought was why tell me this? I don't tell guys I google them or look on FB for them. Just be cool, pretend you don't know I'm a "famous" scientist, and act surprised when I show you my mind blowing papers.