48 HOURS!

We are 48hrs away from the start of the 1/2IM. And, oddly, I'm not panicking. Yeah, I'm kind of worried. I know I can't change anything. I could back out but I'd rather die or crawl to the finish than do that. I'd even settle for a DNF (did not finish) before a DNS (did not start).

Also, I've been seeing this guy.....well, seeing is an over statement. It's been a week and we've gone out 3 times. Which is crazy for me! I'd like it to last a bit (if not longer). I've yet to find an annoying habit. We've eaten together and he doesn't hum. He has all his teeth, a good job, education, a house. He's kind to animals, liberal. Basically, he's FUCKING perfect. Which scares the shit out of me. I don't remember how to do the casual dating thing with a guy I like. Usually, I just jump into relationship mode but I think I need to take it slower with this one. Also, what if he's seeing someone else? This is a complete possibility since we met through online dating and that's all a numbers game. When do you have that convo?

I'm sort of feeling him out on short/long term dating. I asked about a date two weeks from now. It involves tickets and a small amount of commitment. He's going to get back to me on it.

Panic

I have to admit, I'm starting to panic. The REV3 1/2 Iron Man distance Triathlon is in 9 days. The 1/2IM I did last year at Poconos was really hard on my body (and mind) and YET I feel I was better prepared for that one. When I signed up for this race I had settled into my new job and thought the summer would be like any other.

I WAS WRONG! TERRIBLY TERRIBLY WRONG!

My tonsils with pus

Work this summer consisted of long hours that left me too exhausted to train for all of July and most of August. I thought I'd get back into training a couple of weeks ago but you know how vacations are. And then I got tonsilitis this past week that dampened my energy.

I finally got a 10 mile run in this past Saturday but it was really rough. I could blame the tonsils but I know that's not completely it. Today's 2 mile run was awful.

 I did get a mile swim in last night. So, that's something.

I only want to finish. Ok, and beat my time last year but I'd be happy beating it by just 5min.

WHAT THE.....

This week has really tested my self confidence. I was stood up twice. I HAVE NEVER BEEN STOOD UP!! I did have a guy cancel on me after I replied no to "Are you going to put out tonight."

This is most likely true.

One guy this week said he was in the bar but then texted that he needed to fix his aunts downed electric. A possibility since we did have storms that day and he is an electrician. But, it reminds me of this gem (above video, I've given up trying to align everything)....except I didn't get crab cakes. I did get a tasty pineapple beer. That I paid for.

VS Test

I'm putting the Victoria's Secret curse to the test today. Actually, it's more like "What if..."

If you don't remember what I'm talking about here's a refresher. Basically, every time I'm dating a guy and I feel it's time for some cute undergarments from VS the guy disappears within a week! Today I wondered what would happen if I purchased clothing from VS without a contender for boyfriend. I'm hoping it works in reverse.

Ps. If you're wondering what happened to all my training post, you're not alone. I too. I'm wondering what happened to my training! It's been so haphazard! The 1/2 iron man in a month is going to be a joke!

Seriously?!

To be clear, he's sent me several emails none of which were attention grabbing and if I remember correctly only consisted of a line or two. I deleted them pretty much as soon as they came in and his pic is a bit stalkerish. He's now been blocked.

I'm Horrid

Yesterday, I met a guy I had been seeing for about 5 dates for drinks and dinner. I've been trying to decide how I felt towards him for the past 5 dates. I had hoped that his recent trip abroad would allow this thing to just fizzle and die. But, alas, I had no such luck. I received emails while he was gone and a text alerting me to his return and his wish to see me.

The horrid part is there's nothing wrong with him. He's perfectly nice. Perfectly attractive. We share roughly the same views on life and politics. Dinner or drinks with him were always pleasant. But there was always something missing. I felt no passion for him. No burning desire to see him.


During dinner he talked of things to do in the future, to which I replied VERY noncommittally. As we were walking back to our cars I felt I needed to be honest with him and explain how I felt. He took it well and tried to tell me that passion can sometimes grow. It also seemed like he felt the same way but was willing to settle for a happy if passionless relationship. It might be ok for him but not for me.

Oh, did I mention that when I got to the bar he had a gift for me from his trip? I tried to give it back but he only took the alcohol and left me with the knick knack. I'm not a knick knack person.

I Missed!

I missed the box last week at Crossfit while doing box jumps.

Post WOD

The WOD was:

10, 20, 30

BJ, over and back

Kettle bell snatch, alt arms.

My coach set up all the boxes while we warmed up and did our skill sett. I was originally set for a 24inch box but I flipped it to 20inch. I was just heading into 21 of the last set of 30 when I completely whiffed and effed up my leg. I of course kept going (after switching to a 12inch) and finished the WOD! 

Hemorrhaging at work

There was blood everywhere! I cleaned up my space and my leg as best I could. When I got home I slapped a couple of band aids on and called it a job well done! 

The missing chunk

Except 2 hours into work my leg felt a little funny. When I looked down there were dark spots in my jeans and my shoes. Blood was GUSHING down my leg and of course I have a barely serviceable first aid kit! Luckily, I work almost at a hospital and was working that day with a surgeon. He cleaned me up, offered to put in stitches if I really wanted them (I did but didn't say so), and then tightly wrapped it to stop the bleeding. He says I'm going to have a nice scar but as that leg is already scarred up, I doubt anyone will notice. 

1.5wks later and still a visible goose egg

I have yet to go back to Crossfit. Not because I'm embarrassed but with trying to stop bleeding, the holiday, and a couple other things, it just hasn't happened. I plan on heading in Friday but will probably be at work till 830 Thursday and it'll be 50/50 if I make it!